My beautiful Rose

My Krystal Rose. Early in 1995 I was drinking a glass of orange juice, & I dropped it. I looked at your father & said "I'm pregnant" ( please don't try to understand this, I just knew). My suspicions were confirmed. I would be meeting you mid Oct., or so we though. I loved being pregnant with you. To have a human life growing inside me was such a blessing. I never got physically sick during my pregnancy, I felt like i was going to though. As I got further along in my pregnancy I loved feeling you kick, & hiccup. I had some complications, so I had to have non stress tests every other day, the last few months of my pregnancy. One of the nurses told me to drink orange juice before the ultra sounds, the sugar would make you move more. I would eat honey buns & juice, & enjoy feeling you jumping around my belly. On Friday Sept 7, I went to the doctor, he said he wanted to deliver you next week. WHAT!!!!! I thought I had another month. You were loosing weight in my uterus, you wanted out. Because you were breach, & high risk we decided on a C- section. The secretary called later in the day with the date of your scheduled birth. Sept 12th. Sept 12 would have been your grandparents wedding anniversary. Your grandpa Chewens had past away the previous Dec, so I knew this would be a hard day for your grandma. I was pleased with Gods plan to have you born on this day. Grandma Linda was in the delivery room with us. What a great new way to remember this date.

As soon as you were born the doctor held you up, all I saw where these huge, beautiful blue eyes. My Krystal Rose. Such a tiny little baby, you weighed a little more then a 5 pound bag of sugar. The last 17 years have been an awesome journey my beautiful Rose. You have taught me so much about myself, about life. I look at you & constantly feel like I'm looking in a mirror. Your expressions, your reactions to situations....... all of you. My monkey ( yup that's what I call ya) you are an amazing young lady. It blows my mind that you are 17. I am so proud of the girl you are, the beautiful young lady you are becoming. You have taught me so much more then you will ever know (perhaps when you are 35 & have your own kids you'll understand this) Please don't ever doubt yourself, don't ever doubt your worth. I LOVE YOU so much my KRYSTAL ROSE!!!

Remember the song I use to sing you, in the tune of " you are my sunshine"- mommy loves her Krystal, Krystal Krystal roses Krystal rose, Krystal rose . Happy birthday my most favorite girl. What I wanted most for my daughter was that she be able to soar confidently in her own sky, whatever that may be. -- Helen Claes