Today is world suicide prevention day. My mother took her own life over 30 years ago. I remember it so clearly. I can't say what her thoughts were on December 1, 1981 I can only guess how sad she must have been to think her life had no value, to think her hudband, parents, siblings, children would be better off without her. This cold winter day was not my mothers first attempt at taking her own life, but it was her final attempt.

When I allowed myself to think about my mothers death, I use to feel anger. I felt my mom was very selfish for her actions. Recently, I was reading an email from a relative of ours, and I was overcome by compassion for Mary Lou Watts Hommel, my mom. Most people who take their own life think that suicide is the only answer, the only way to fix their pain. If you have been so depressed as to feel this way, I thank God you are reading this. Here are some suicide Warning Signs; •Talking about suicide •Seeking out lethal means •Preoccupation with death •No hope for the future •Feelings of hopelessness •Self-loathing, self-hatred •Feelings of worthlessness, guilt, shame, and self-hatred •Getting affairs in order •Making out a will •Saying goodbye Unusual or unexpected visits or calls to family and friends to say goodbye •Withdrawing from others •Self-destructive behavior •Increased alcohol or drug use, •Taking unnecessary risks as if they have a "death wish." •Sudden sense of calm The suicide hot line phone number is; 800-273-8255 “Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.” FYI when I was outside taking pictures for this blog, I stuck my hand under a big beutiful flower & got stung by a bee. Bees will be bees.